EVENING WIND AND THE MOON

Ever since I have come to the Kathmandu valley, I have stayed in a small room which seemed to be the whole earth for me over several years, I mean for almost a decade. The regular routine used to be like waking up, doing homework and going to school and again returning to home from school. Then rest of the time playing games in mobile, eating and sleeping. The important phase of the day used to be completing school homework and playing outdoor sports with friends. But, in these daily activities, I was literally unaware about the surrounding and natural activities of the earth. I was totally unaware about the season change effects, wonders of rainfall, the fog of the winter, natural night that always comes after the evening which occurs at every date, etc. This unawareness remained for almost a decade until I shifted to a new place.

I have shifted to current place previous year. Well, most of the time I talk with my mind (psyche). I don’t usually talk with other people for a longer period of time. So, my mind has been my best friend to talk about every situations very frankly for almost a whole day continuously. Most of the evening, I go to the roof top and look at the hills and then I look at the sky. I can always see that golden sky turning into a little visible blue sky with some clouds running wildly without having any kind of interruption. It slowly turns to a total dark sky and I can see the fading color of the sky for some time. Then, the breeze travels from southwest (nairitya) direction to northeast (ishaanya) direction. That is literally a cool breeze and contain many thoughts of people throughout the day. When it starts to get darker, the speed of light enters inside my eyes frequently from different houses. Lights, then begin to get more energetic every second than the ascending darkness inside this enclosed city. I then start to look at the sky. I can see a lot of stars twinkling by tearing the dominance of that darkness. I wonder how they can twinkle so nicely even in that cruel darkness. Again, I look at those three stars which seem to be collinear. I feel like I am a small child looking at those stars with a lot of concentration. It really feels like a child looking at the stars with wonder and curiosity. It attracted me so unexpectedly like a butterfly is attracted by a beautiful garden of flowers. This might also be the reason that I hadn’t looked up in the sky at night for a longer time.

After every month, there comes a new moon and every day it gets brighter and sharper. Whenever I see that moon I feel like I am looking at someone very close to me. During childhood, the child is attracted towards the moon and looks at it very carefully and curiously. S/he talks with that moon too and that moon understands them very well. But why is moon attracting me? Why am I talking so frankly with the moon but not with anyone else? Why does it feels like if the moon is with me during my every moment of life, whether I might be happy, sad, angry, excitement, joy, curiosity, anxiety, stress, confusion, sorrow, pleasure, bliss, etc.? I was not getting its answer. I feel like if it is understanding what I think and what I feel.

Slowly I knew that the moon is itself a reflection of our mind. However or wherever our mind is, it is connected with the moon. Some people think it just another mad thinking, some people try to connect it with science and can’t get answer. But I do feel like the moon is an audience of every people’s mind. The sun and the moon has always been the audience of this earth throughout the day and night ever since its existence. Lights of the city get heavier and brush out the existence of stars from the sky at night. Whenever there is power cut, I can see the stars clearly, otherwise the heavy light of the city gets in the way of my sight to block the twinkling of the stars. The star light easily defeats the darkness but the city lights get in its way and block it to enter my eyes. I can now witness only a few stars in the sky. No matter how many stars there are, the moon becomes the main source of attraction of my mind just as how a close one becomes the only attraction among the unknown and dense crowd of people. The wind in the meantime brings some peaceful and cool temperature and takes various nuisances away from the city. The glowing of infinite lights of city looks very dull in front of the spirit glow of the moon. It has some kind of magical brightness which touches the spirit of one person. I can easily send my thoughts and views to the moon through its pleasant light. The pleasant and cool light of the moon makes it different from the sunlight. Even at night, we could witness the pleasant brightness and more peaceful environment under the moon. Looking at the moon clearly without any fear of its brightness and feeling the peaceful world at night gives another confidence to talk with the moon more closely and  comfortably. The wind becomes another trustful friend in the meantime. A cool breeze continuously blowing and taking all the unwanted negative thoughts away and making mind very fresh to communicate comfortably with the moon. Not only it makes possible for a sound communication with the moon but also increases the sharpness to look at the city lights. So, the wind plays a major role in the evening to feel the aura of the nature.